2004-06-09 - 2:35 p.m.

i purged in the bathroom at my therapists office... ironic? maybe just a little.

i told her about the pains in my stomach and she told me i should go to a doctor, but i'm not going to.

she's concerned, but she keeps acting as if what i'm doing is better than restricting, which makes me want to go that way so i'll be "bad enough" for her.

i've lost a few pounds. it's not enough, i don't see a difference, no one's said anything to me.

i'm 5lbs from freedom and no one cares.. not even really me. i don't really have money to buy food so i haven't been eating much, still purging though. maybe i can keep this up.

add water - stir