2004-10-01 - 3:46 p.m.

I didn't make it.. obviously. it's really not a big surprise.

and so here i sit eating a pizza made for 9-16 people. thinking maybe i should have started off with a goal a little more appropriate, like 2 weeks.. or maybe one fucking day.

it feels like there's no hope. i've dug my own grave. i wish i could go back to myself 3 years ago and shake my head and tell me to get myself the fuck together.

i never would have thought i'd turn out like this....

add water - stir