2004-11-08 - 12:29 p.m.

Slowly the numbers knock back down. A comfort, but I still feel fatter then before when I was this weight. So lower is the way to go. I want to lose 20lbs.

I worked out this weekend, as hard as I possibly could, no half assing the machines on a low level and slow pace. It felt great.

20lbs. It starts today. I have a goal, I will make it. Less b/ping, more working out.

Then I'll be skinny. Then I'll be small again, smaller than I've ever been before. Only then will things be ok. I can feel it. It's a rush. Knowing I will make it.
Knowing I will fade away.

Finally.

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