2004-12-03 - 12:12 p.m.

bmi = 16.8

I know how disappointing I am. My roommate tried so hard to get me to go work out with her.. but I'm too tired. I kept telling her no, but she came in, opened my blinds, turned on the music, turned on my light, jumped on my bed.. even made me breakfast and got out my workout clothes.

I appreciate it all.. and I told her, but I never asked her to do any of that. I didn't want to go. I feel so exhausted. My legs and back ache.. and theres no way I could do 30mins of cardio and then still do weights. Maybe one or the other.. but not both. I'm just too exhausted.

She left looking mad, without saying goodbye. I hate that I'm a bad roommate.. who would want to live with a bulimic?

I hate that this is coming between us, but I had a feeling it would. Just means I know I can never tell anyone else. What was I thinking, really?

Ugh.

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